Out with the old, in with the new

I have been living in a dream for most of my life. A fantasy world of my own making. An illusion that made sense only to me.

I didn't realize it, but I was merely surviving. It hadn't fully sunk in, what I had been through...

I didn't know what being separated from my mother at 3 would do to me.

I didn't know what being raised in a cult would do to me.

I didn't know what my step mothers severe abuse would do to me.

I didn't know that my father allowed this abuse and condoned it.

I didn't realize that not only did he not protect me, he participated.

I didn't know what suppressing my lesbian nature would do to me.

I didn't know that I was living a lie. I just didn't know... until now.

Now, my life is my own. Yes, what I have been through is significant and I won't pretend and say that I'm fully healed. I'm not. It's a process that takes time. What I will say is that I've finally found my voice. And I'm ready to share my experience with those who are drawn to it.

We're all in this together and I welcome any and all to share with me on this incredible ride of life.

Only Love,

Shawna xo

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